I haven’t wanted a child for long. Three years ago, I came to the stunning realization that I actually wanted to be a mother. Two years ago (as of August), we began trying.
To have a doctor utter words today about IVF (in vitro fertilization) if I’m not pregnant within the next 3–4 cycles came as a crushing blow. My husband and I will not do IVF simply because it’s too expensive.
Two to three years isn’t a long time to have a dream about children compared to other women who have been trying for twice as long. But somehow, we have already reached the point of basically being told that we’re infertile without those words being used.
I could face the rest of my married life as childless not by choice.
This Journey Is My Own 